I encountered odd circumstances

As if I’m staring into an invisible mirror

And watching myself move

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I feel out of body,

And watch the girl with the same eyes

Same hair

Same build.

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I watch her try

And I watch her thoughts

And watch her crawl, then walk.

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I’ve seen you fall

And cry

And give up

But you always rise

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I look back to the time where everything hurt.

All the time.

Indulged by a monster

Shoved in grave

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There was no way out,

It lived here.

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It lives inside me.

I have never known

what it is

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But It scares me sometimes

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It overpowers everything

And it wins,

No matter what, it always wins.

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It takes my breathe and all my thoughts

I can’t breathe.

And a rush to shut the running thoughts off

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It calls me out.

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I dont even care if anyone is proud of my being

At this point

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But I am so proud of her

I am so proud of you.

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The hardest relationship,

is the one you have with yourself.

I have hurt her

Mistreated her

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No one can match the damage that I’ve done to myself.

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Solitariness.

A medicine for the scars,

If taken in moderation

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All I have is you, 

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You are not broken,

There is hope.